Is It Any Wonder?

The title of this entry is also the title of a song by Keane: "Is It Any Wonder."

"I always thought that I knew
I'd always have the right to
Be living the kingdom of the good and true and so on
But now I think I was wrong
And you were laughing along
And now I look a fool for thinking you were on my side."

Stress, travel, relationships..."Is it any wonder I'm tired? Is it any wonder that I feel uptight? Is it any wonder I don't know what's right?"

Is it any wonder...Worried about work. Thinking about my future. Confused about dating. Wondering what could be next..."Is it any wonder I'm tired? Is it any wonder that I feel uptight? Is it any wonder I don't know what's right?"

"Sometimes I get the feeling that I'm
Stranded in the wrong time
Where love is just a lyric in a children's rhyme."

Am I too sensitive? Do I feel too much too quickly? It's a double-edged sword, really. I feel extremely compassionate and caring toward people who are marginalized in our society or who are suffering because of natural and social disasters. So I have a great capacity to feel. I'm ready to love. I'm ready do discover things about myself that I might not even realize I know about love. But as the song says..."Stranded in the wrong time where love is just a lyric in a children's rhyme." That can be very disappointing.

"Nothing left beside this old cathedral
Just the sad lonely spires
How do you make it right?
Oh but you try."

So I'll try.

I'll live my own life. On my own terms. I'll live the life of a passionate lover of/in a world where "love is just a lyric." This means I will need to be tough sometimes...And maybe a little tired. Tough enough not to settle and tough enough not to be settled for.

What does that mean? What will my life look like? Sad lonely spires? I don't know...That might not be all bad.

Cathedrals are grand and beautiful things. One of my favorite memories is sitting among the spires and the gargoyles of the Duomo Cathedral in Milan. Cathedrals leave a legacy. Cathedrals last. Cathedrals are majestic, spiritual and holy places. I want my life to be a majestic, spiritual and holy place.

"Nothing left beside this old cathedral
Just the sad lonely spires
How do you make it right?
Oh but you try."

So I'll try. Is it any wonder that I would try?